15 posts tagged “love”
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I've spent the past few days talking about negativity to a variety of people in a variety of places: an expensive "Chinese bistro" that serves San Pellegrino in huge bottles, my car on Hawthorne road in Winston-Salem, a Colombian woman's living room while staring at a big cow-skin rug, and while sitting on the edge of my bathtub on the phone. Although these conversations started in different ways, they all really came back to this article I read about angry / negative people and how they affect personal perception and attitude. It's all very scientific and thought-provoking, obviously.
Otherwise, I've been very happy lately despite not being able to get enough of Chuck and missing him a lot. Sappy, oh yeah. But I'm so excited about moving in Thursday~!
I'm sitting on the standard-issue dorm bed in room 315 of Johnson hall at Wake Forest University. I'm spending the night here with my gorgeous boyfriend in his cute little single room! He's playing some FPS game he downloaded off the internet, and I'm taking advantage of the superfast download speeds on the wireless guest network to torrent the entire series of Shoujo Kakumei Utena. We've had quite an exciting day; dinner was had at the new Jimmy John's on downtown 4th Street, we walked to coffee at Krankies, and came back here for sneaky bathroom trips (boys bathrooms are smelly!) and a resident adviser dressed like Flavor Flav. He tried to assure us he didn't normally dress like that, but, he looked so much like a white rapper (Everlast, anyone?) I don't know if I believe him.
Anyway, we're just going to snuggle in Chuck's twin bed and I'm going to resist the urge to use the really cute ballpoint pins he bought me as a "going to college" present. He also got me a 24-count case of college ruled, single subject, spiral notebooks and a few other things. Like envelopes so we can write each other letters! Oh, school supplies are so romantic.. and I'm only being like 20% sarcastic.
This is making me so excited to move in! Also, my mouth tastes slightly like minty cotton candy because Chuck got his dad to buy me some pepto bismol. Also exciting!
Speaking of music, I've been on a downloading spree today. More and more Bjork, The Mountain Goats, Serj Tankian (finally!) and some other stuff that I'm forgetting. It's so delightful to have new music to listen to, take in, and digest. It's almost frightening at first, but it usually turns out okay in the end I think. :)
My nana and I went shopping today for dorm room stuff. We originally went to Sears (she worked there for like 30 years and gets a discount even though she's retired) but she was disappointed with the selection so we only got some pillows there. We bought a bunch of stuff at Target, because they had so much cute stuff! I'm so excited to snuggle into my quilt and micro-fleece blanket and all this stuff. It's making me really excited to move, but at the same time, I'm really nervous because I really have no clue what I need to bring aside from the obvious stuff. I guess I shouldn't stress so much, because I was originally worried that my dad didn't want to pay for any of this stuff but it turned out okay in the end. So optimism is good!
I've been keeping in touch with Kearstin (who is in California visiting family) via email over the past few days, and it's super fun just to write these elaborate letters to each other about the entirety of what's been going on. She also has a wicked sense of humor that makes me giggle. For instance, in this past email, she told me that everyone down there is a "Molly Mormon" who wants to make babies for the rest of their lives to "continue their family name." She said that her rebuttal was that she was just going to live forever so she doesn't have to worry about passing down anything. <3
Tomorrow, Chuck is coming over after work to spend the night with me and we're going off cavorting around Kernersville to gather some needed items. I am positively stoked.
Guess it's too late for me to go back to sleep, huh? Oh well.
I didn't sleep very well, as per the past three nights or so. I wake up at about 5am and keep waking up every hour or so until I finally decide to pull myself out of bed. Last night, Chuck slept with me, and he had to wake up at 8:45 to go over to Wake so that didn't help. I wish we could have cuddled longer. :( It's still arctic in my house, and my blankets are in the wash due to human error so we had to huddle for warmth. Now I'm wearing his jacket and I'm under some baby blanket.
Here is some beautiful music to start your day off with while I procrastinate more and more with leaving the house to get food for my kitties.
Kearstin and I are going to see The (new) X-Files movie tonight and I am pumped. Here is an article about how much of a badass feminist idol Scully is.
Today has been nice for the most part, considering I had Chipotle for lunch and got to see some of the sky as the sun was rising. The dew on the cast-iron lawn chair I was sitting on was simultaneously chilling and refreshing. Last night my tummy was hurting really bad.. Aaron wanted to get some Chinese buffet food and after one plate I was so done. But I ate more anyway because Chuck was paying for me and I didn't want to waste his money. (No, I'm not blaming you!) Either way, later, I had some bad indigestion. But I'm feeling a lot better now! Chipotle heals all!
The past few days have been slightly more interesting than the usual summer fare, which is good. Today I'm planning on playing some Pokemon Red as usual. I rented Super Paper Mario for the Wii, but it's just not catching my fancy. It's not RPG-styled (as far as I can tell) like the other ones and that's what I loved in the first place.
You know, I just noticed that I haven't crossed off any days on my calendar since July 8th. I am very behind.. and I think that's why I've been having such a hard time figuring out what day it is.
In other news, I haven't been doing much of anything lately except hanging out at home and watching television. Charles is coming to stay with me starting tomorrow after he gets off work, which is so exciting. He better start taking care of me, considering I do what feels like the majority of his laundry! Pfft! ;)
Also, oh, how could I have forgotten! I got an email about an hour ago asking if a non-profit (based in Norfolk, Virginia) human rights group could use my photo in some invitation for a coffee discussion. All my photos are licensed under Creative Commons Attribution Non-Commercial Share and Share Alike (what a mouthfull!) so they didn't even have to ask me as long as they credited me for the picture. That was really nice! I am way excited.
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Now what was I doing again?
I found a bunch of kitty stickers and they make me really happy. I've been putting them on everything but I also don't want to run out. I really enjoy the option of being able to put stickers on stuff when I want to.
Chuck and I went to Krankies and walked around downtown Winston earlier today and it was lovely. He was so hyper from espresso that we were giggling about 90% of the walk. Before our city adventure, also, we got into a ticklefight something fierce because I was being grumpy. I'm glad my dad wasn't home because I think he may have been alarmed by my screams of, "PLEASE STOP! I can't breathe!"
So all in all, a wonderful day.
I've been taking a lot of pictures of food lately. So here's a picture of what Chuck drank to make him so hyper. I usually feel guilty drinking espresso made with milk and whipped cream, but it was just a sip and he paid for it.
Tomorrow, Erin and I are going to spend the day playing Pokemon Puzzle Quest. Back in our younger days, we rented this N64 game and spent about 12-14 hours playing it until daybreak. Now since my Gamecube got pawned and I don't have an AV cable for my 64, we're going to download it from the VC on the Wii and try to relive some of our former glory.
Siddarth and I presented our project on globalization today. He made a Powerpoint last night, spur of the moment, so I basically just stood there and talked statistics for five seconds. We should get a good grade on it, though. It's really nice not having that hanging over my head anymore.
Yesterday I went to Dr. Morgan at Piedmont Psychiatric Associates. She diagnosed me as having unipolar depression with melancholic features and gave me Wellbutrin XL. I talked to my dad about it and he says it's up to me whether I want to get therapy or not; I'm on the fence. I've had therapists in the past and they were fun.. I like talking about myself and having people listen. However, it seems like a waste of time unless they're going to do something about some behavioral problems I have. I'll probably try it out for a while, I mean, it'll be summer. Something to do would be nice. I'm really skeptical about the efficacy of this medication, though. I've tried others before with really no improvement. I got into the state of mind that these depressive episodes were caused by people and things rather than some chemical imbalance. While it's nice to think that some miracle drug can fix it, it really seems too ingrained... or maybe that's me being a pessimist.
It seems like forever since I've posted. This past weekend seemed like an eternity but ephemeral all the same. Ephemeral? I'm starting to sound like Zooey Deschanel. Speaking of her, I really want to see the new M. Night Shyamalan movie The Happening. But that doesn't come out until June 13th so we're going to see The Strangers this weekend instead. The latter is your basic, run-of-the-mill horror movie but with Joanna Newsom's music. Did I mention we're going on Sunday? And that I'll have nothing to do all weekend so my extroverted persona is probably going to go into hibernation? Yeah.
I also made cookies.
And if Chuck would come see me ever during the week I would make fudge brownies. But I guess not.
I don't have to be at Glenn until 12:30 so I'm procrastinating away the extra time for I've been given on things. Tomorrow, I have to present a small talk about globalization and how much it hurts local cultures. I honestly don't care that much.. it seems so simple. Big corporations are bad for little people. But, my partner Siddarth and I decided it would be a better topic than say, Tibet. The people in class aren't going to care about anything we say so we might as well pick something easy. I hate speaking in there, though; it's obnoxious. I'm getting so worked up about a three to five minute speech it just makes me more anxious.
You know, it amazes me on a consistent basis how difficult and complicated people and feelings are. It's also strange that I'm amazed. I mean, come on, shouldn't that be expected? But then you start feeling things and thinking things that gross you out and make you feel guilty and they're not even true. Or, more truthfully, I start feeling and thinking these things and it's just weird. I hate how my brain gets tricked into thinking things that make me feel disgusted. Gross things are gross.
What am I even talking about? Who cares? I could be looking up telephoto lenses right about now.
